Mood swing is very annoying! I can be flying in the sky, and in one second I feel like I'm drowning into a deep sea. If u ask me what causes this, I also don't know. I'm blaming it to hormone imbalance (that's the closest thing that I can think of, judging from my situation). I realize that it's better when I'm surrounded with my friends as I'll try not to ruin their days by bringing them down.
I think with my feeling. That is one of my weaknesses I admit. Doesn't mean that I don't use my logic. I do use my logic (including when I'm thinking). It's just most of the time I naturally choose to follow my feeling. And being in this situation, this really is not helpful. This has been happening for about a month now. I feel uneasy. I feel that I have to make peace to myself. It's just like unconsciously I'm stressed out, but being unconscious, I don't know what are the reasons.
I'm so tired with my mood swing. But I've been better since Wednesday though. On Friday morning, I searched on google: mood lifters. There were some suggestions that were quite common like relaxing, hang out with closed friends, chocolate, etc. And I did put some efforts that day, like trying to smile all the time, trying to hear to some cheerful songs, trying to really put my focus on my work, and they did help. But of course my mood swing has not gone yet. It's not that easy. However, I promise myself, I'm going to conquer this mood swing. I'll do better tomorrow than today. I'll do better every day.
One white cuddly cheerful poodle, a bundle of joy. Thank you for accompanying our family for the past 10 years and 10 days. You were there, witnessing our ups and downs. Cheer us up whenever we were sad. And you comforted us with your smile and wagging tails.
Thanks for taking care of my mom when I couldn't be there on her side. Thanks for putting smiles on my dad face every morning.
Thanks for hugging me tight whenever I came home.
I am surely going to miss you. When I come home this Christmas, I won't be able to see you.
But I know that you are in better place now. Now you don't have to be afraid when it's raining hard outside, and the lights and the thunders won't frighten you.
Hope you enjoyed spending your time with us. And now may your soul rest in peace.
I seek comfort from You, o God.
My soul is thirsty for You.
Though one might see my smiles and my tears,
only You who know my heart.
Please give me Your peace and Your wisdom, o Lord,
in my heart and in my mind.
I can't live my life without You, o Lord.
You are my strength, You are my light.
I seek comfort from You, o God.
Hear my soul whispering to you, dear Lord.
A friend of mine chose this place for our catch up dinner. Booked a table for 4 but sadly one of our friends had to stay back in the office hence couldn't join us for dinner. The place looks pretty small but they actually have a courtyard seating. We sat inside in a communal table (they have 2 communal tables and some tables for 2 inside, plus one circle table with sofa). I like the atmosphere, it's small, simple, cozy with modern influence. And if you take a peek, their courtyard seating looks cozy too with friendly atmosphere. Would be nice to have dinner in the courtyard on one summer night.
Service is excellent, the waiters & waitresses are all charming and helpful. We decided to order 2 entrees and 3 mains. The Ma hor is SUPER YUMMM!!!! The flavors burst in your mouth beautifully! You have to eat it as a whole. And it has nice after taste too! Super recommended! Second entree is the betel leaf with prawn, peanuts and fresh coconuts. It tastes nice but a bit too strong for me personally (yes even for my Asian taste, I guess a bit too much lemon and fish sauce). Still, is nice tho!
As for the mains, I like the duck and watermelon salad. It has nice combination and the watermelon kind of cleanse your mouth. The fried pork ribs is a bit too dry for me, but the red chili vinegar helps to add the flavor hence it doesn't taste too meaty. As for the steamed snapper, we were a bit disappointed as we thought it would be a steamed snapper fillet with a bit of coconut sauce. But as you can see from the picture, it looks like a bowl of snapper curry! As for the price, I guess it is fair as the menu is quite different and it's Asian fusion. If you are fancying fancy Asian cuisine, you must give it a try!
ku jadi florist... eh, graphic designer... eh, event organiser..... eh, singer ..... eh, kindi teacher... eh, tour guide.... eh, punya cafe..... eh, photographer... eh, travel blogger..... eh, eh, eh...
(biasanya adek & temen-temen gw langsung bilang: ah pusing ah ella banyak maunya) hehehe
Ya abis gimana dong, those occupations sound interesting!
Inget gak, waktu kecil pasti kita pernah ditanyain, cita-citanya apa nanti pas udah gede? Seinget saya most of my friends tuh cita-citanya jadi dokter. What's yours? Wanna know what's mine? Jangan diketawain yah. Cita-cita saya ga setinggi langit. Mentok di plafon rumah doang hehehe Well dari kecil aja cita-cita saya suka ganti-ganti. Tapi saya inget, saya paling pengen jadi kasir (selain jadi polisi dan pramugari) hihihi
Ini side story: lagi kecil saya suka kebalik antara pramugari and peragawati. Ngomong martabak aja buat saya susah, malah jadi matabrak hehehe But i'm pretty sure yg saya maksud itu pramugari as bisa keliling dunia dan naik pesawat. Nah kalo catwalk di pesawat susah dong, pake gaun couture yg biasanya gede and panjang-panjang di alley yg sempit, keselimpet malahan.
Back to my cita-cita jadi kasir. Nah, mungkin ada yang mikir, kenapa kasir? Soalnya keliatannya seru, mencet-mencet tombol uda gitu terakhirnya mencet 1 tombol, bunyi "kaching", then keluar duit deh hehehe
Udah gedean dikit, around SD and SMP, cita-cita saya berubah lagi, kali ini jadi librarian. Why? karena saya suka baca buku. And kepengaruh dari buku-buku yang saya baca (yang biasanya latar belakangnya somewhere di luar negeri), kayaknya enak kerja di perpustakaan.
Saya juga pernah kepikiran untuk jadi Archaeologist. Soalnya dari kecil saya suka history apalagi yg tentang manusia purba and Egypy and lost civilizations. Kayaknya interesting gitu cari-cari benda peninggalan purbakala. Meneliti-meneliti dan penuh adventures.
Tibalah saatnya SMA, di mana harus mulai lebih serius buat decide, so what's next? What do u want to be? Saat itu saya masi pengen jd either librarian or archaeologist. Tapi tambah lagi cita-cita saya: dentist karena waktu itu saya pake kawat gigi and kayaknya seru ngotak ngatik gigi (hmmm doesn't sound right ya?); interior design karena saya demen menata dan menghias rumah; guru TK karena saya suka anak-anak; and hospitality/tourism karena kayaknya kerja di hotel seru and saya suka traveling.
In the end semua impian saya saat itu mesti di cross off dari list. Dengan alasan yang mayan lucu juga. Oke:
- Librarian: kalo kata nyokap, ngapain mati ngeliat buku?
-Dentist: well saya ga diterima masuk IPA hahaha obviously karena nilai Fisika saya parah banget!
-Interior design: karena saya gak bisa gambar
-Guru TK: oh come on, di Indo mah "mana bisa hidup"
-Hospitality and Tourism: kurang lebih sama ama alasannya guru TK
Dan akhirnya saya ambil business. Awalnya saya masih kekeuh (= persistent) mau ambil marketing. Kayaknya seru aja ngatur strategy and concept gimana cara masarin satu product or idea ke public. My dad uda yakin banget it's not me. He said "i believe that you are accounting person". And jreng jreng, saya itu orangnya pesimis. Mid term exam marketing, first semester of my uni, i failed the exam. Bye bye marketing. Hence I finally took Accounting and Finance as my majors.
And yes, that's why I end up doing accounting job now. But if u asked me, I'm not accounting person. I get bored doing accounting haha I don't really mind doing it but if I have any other choice, I prefer to do something in more creative sides. Unfortunately u can't really put any creativity in accounting. Otherwise it will be creative accounting and you can be jailed! hahaha
But now, I can truly accept and understand why last time my mom and dad forced me to do accounting and finance. Not because: kalo accounting mati ngeliat duit hehehehe but because it's the basic on every business, every industry. I can still work in a hotel or traveling agency or a design company as their accounting person.
I can still learn those other things by taking some short courses here. Somehow tuh di sini environmentsnya lebih mendukung buat belajar macem-macem. First, karena lebih bisa nabung dari hasil kerja jadi lebih menudukung financially. Second, karena di sini most of the jobs don't require u to stay back at the office! hahaha Culture kerjanya relax gitu. Third, karena public transport systemnya uda lebih teratur jadi gampang kalo mau kemana-mana and less traffic jam compared to in Jakarta. Nah tinggal sekarang decide deh mana yang bener-bener passion gw. Hold on. Let me change the word as passion is a very strong word in my opinion. Mana yang bener-bener gw suka. Hence ke depannya gw bisa doing something yg gw sukain, kerja yg emang bener-bener sukain.
And please pray for me....so i can have courage to (if i have to) change my lane. Salute for those people who really fight for their dreams from the very start and survive and finally win your war. I give u standing ovation, 4 thumbs up, a bottle of Moet and big bouquet of roses (of course Iit's just an exaggeration) hahaha but truly, good for you!
Well as for all of us, as all people say, pursue your dreams! Let's not die with regrets that you don't achieve any of your dreams. Life is short. Even though you might end up living till 80 or 90 years old, it's still short as you can't turn back your time. Whatever my dreams are, I know one thing, when my time has come to the end, I really wish I can die peacefully and I can smile, knowing that I have enjoyed my time in this world and I have made some if not all my dreams come true.
